Friday, January 30, 2009

Rejected! No Grad Studies for Me

The University of British Columbia got back to me today by e-mail - "They regret me to inform me...."

Yeah, I got rejected. I know I can write on my own. I know I don't need a Master's Degree to write wonderful novels. But, well, I really was keen on the idea of learning how to edit magazines and write a novel as a thesis. Really, though, I was keener on the idea of postponing real life for another two years. For two years, I wouldn't have to worry about getting a job that would stick. I wouldn't have to worry about moving out, or doing my own taxes, or worrying about medical insurance.

Now I have to worry about all that. In my fantasy mind, in those two years I would finish my novel and become crazy wealthy and never have to get a real job again. I know in my head that would never happen, but it's easier to face the future when it's two years away than when it ends in March.

I just really wish I'd gotten in. I feel lousy - I keep wondering about all the things I must have done wrong with my application - should I have given them three samples instead of my two best? Should I have gone over my online application to look more carefully for mistakes? I really don't know.

Vancouver, I'm sure, is a lovely city and British Columbia is a lovely province, but for now, for today, they can suck it.

4 comments:

  1. I'm sorry to hear you did not get accepted. Like you said, though, you don't need a master's degree to become a wealthy and fabulous novelist. Good luck on the job search. I hope you find something you enjoy, and you could always apply for grad school again later.

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  2. I know - perhaps I'll look up other studies (there's a creative writing MA program in Guelph), but I'm also looking for jobs. I really only want to write for my living, so postponing real life might not be the best idea right now.

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  3. It's really too bad that you did not get accepted. That said there are still many options available to you, and I am sure that you will find something that you truly enjoy/find worthwhile.

    I hate this waiting game to find out whether or not I get into grad school. It is *NO* fun!

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  4. jennifer10:54 PM

    i know EXACTLY how you feel. got my rejection letter in email yesterday from my dream school. i really thought i had a chance getting in. now im questioning everything, including my own intelligence and abilities. good luck with everything. dont give up.

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